life of student.
i don't remember staying up so late to do work...2:30 am and my mind was still cranking away. thanks to JEP...people who i found online at that time provided a few insights of their own in sharpening my mind for an inclass debate the following morning. i had to turn down personal chats with JPL because of my overbursting schedule of commitments. but still, not only does little beauty rest affect my probable pleasantness and approachability, but also the efficiency in storing enough information and my delivery of that information. i had originally wanted to see if M was online because his experience on pharmaceuticals would probably give me a heads-up on the secrets and loopholes of certain points i had not come across; but alas, he was not on! all in all, the debate went exceedingly well, although i still think i was assigned to be on the more difficult front. serving as the "devil's advocate" was quite intimidating and challenging, but nevertheless engaging...somehow it almost made me feel smart. if anything i'm learning here, it's the idea to confidently handle my opinions without taking things personally, and yet, delivering with subtance...simply put, the argument needs to be meaty.
i would like to believe that i have a heart like Mary's, one that stops to listen whenever the opportunity arises. I am afraid though, that I probably come much closer to being like Martha. Hurrying about, planning, preparing, fixing, organizing, making lists, and worrying. Will it all get done? "It" can be anything from doing the laundry to practicing the guitar. these thoughts can overtake me during church (esp. when i lack motivation in these new places), while having my devotions, in the midst of prayer---almost anywhere, the still, small voice of Him can be drowned out by the shouts of living in the sunset of the 21st century. I still believe that all this planning, preparing, and organizing is important. i believe it is important to Him. afterall, i am trying to be faithful to do well the tasks He has set before me. i need to remember, though, that by far the most important thing i can do is to take time to sit at His feet and really listen.
someone pondered his existence in working/running with the pact yesterday. i couldn't offer much except a somewhat blunt (almost insensitive) response. =( i apologize. but can i offer a story to lighten the spirits, maybe? work should always be associated with joy....the story is told of three women washing clothes. a passerby asked each what she was doing.
"washing clothes" was the first answer.
"a bit of household drudgery" was the second.
"i'm mothering three young children who someday will find important and useful spheres in life, and wash-day is a part of my grand task in caring for these souls who shall live forever" was the third.
ordinary work, which is what most of us do most of the time, is ordained every bit as much as is the extraordinary. all work done for Him is spiritual work and therefore not merely a duty but a holy privilege....
i don't remember staying up so late to do work...2:30 am and my mind was still cranking away. thanks to JEP...people who i found online at that time provided a few insights of their own in sharpening my mind for an inclass debate the following morning. i had to turn down personal chats with JPL because of my overbursting schedule of commitments. but still, not only does little beauty rest affect my probable pleasantness and approachability, but also the efficiency in storing enough information and my delivery of that information. i had originally wanted to see if M was online because his experience on pharmaceuticals would probably give me a heads-up on the secrets and loopholes of certain points i had not come across; but alas, he was not on! all in all, the debate went exceedingly well, although i still think i was assigned to be on the more difficult front. serving as the "devil's advocate" was quite intimidating and challenging, but nevertheless engaging...somehow it almost made me feel smart. if anything i'm learning here, it's the idea to confidently handle my opinions without taking things personally, and yet, delivering with subtance...simply put, the argument needs to be meaty.
i would like to believe that i have a heart like Mary's, one that stops to listen whenever the opportunity arises. I am afraid though, that I probably come much closer to being like Martha. Hurrying about, planning, preparing, fixing, organizing, making lists, and worrying. Will it all get done? "It" can be anything from doing the laundry to practicing the guitar. these thoughts can overtake me during church (esp. when i lack motivation in these new places), while having my devotions, in the midst of prayer---almost anywhere, the still, small voice of Him can be drowned out by the shouts of living in the sunset of the 21st century. I still believe that all this planning, preparing, and organizing is important. i believe it is important to Him. afterall, i am trying to be faithful to do well the tasks He has set before me. i need to remember, though, that by far the most important thing i can do is to take time to sit at His feet and really listen.
someone pondered his existence in working/running with the pact yesterday. i couldn't offer much except a somewhat blunt (almost insensitive) response. =( i apologize. but can i offer a story to lighten the spirits, maybe? work should always be associated with joy....the story is told of three women washing clothes. a passerby asked each what she was doing.
"washing clothes" was the first answer.
"a bit of household drudgery" was the second.
"i'm mothering three young children who someday will find important and useful spheres in life, and wash-day is a part of my grand task in caring for these souls who shall live forever" was the third.
ordinary work, which is what most of us do most of the time, is ordained every bit as much as is the extraordinary. all work done for Him is spiritual work and therefore not merely a duty but a holy privilege....
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