something's in the air
i can't really pinpoint it, but it feels good. the guy who sold it to me smiled. i smiled back. we both knew that this was an awesome product and would make an awesome gift. no doubt someone will be really really happy.

i will listen to him and stop. not that i agree every single time but he's always been right all these years. i know he's only here to protect me.

in a series of 4, i'll get to put on my dancing shoes this weekend for the first time. wahoo! i can barely contain my bliss---these moments that make life so precious, that remind me how much i need to cherish my family and friends, that keep both my heart and soul alive, that reveal His undying love for lil ole me!

best of all worlds....

surprise call
S: Mrs. P, can i get bonnyth a puppy?
Mrs. P: No, S.
B (finding out afterwards): awwww, what a sweet thought....(although i know it'd never happen)
weekend get-away
i had hoped to see more friends, but that's okay because i have the rest of the summer to do that! =) sometimes it feels as if i've never left...friendships come and go, but there's always a special place in my heart for each and every one of them. i can share a very endearing story about each one...and it'd be unique to the dynamics of our relationship. i wish more of my friends could get to know each other. but still, i have that longing feeling to see them whenever i can...even if that means driving into the city (just remember, i'm lazy...). it was nice to catch a glimpse of L before her taking off to the east coast...i arrived late, but at least i was there in time for J's homemade gelato! talk about perfect timing! =)...and oooh...i even saw C eat a hot dog! =)
rowing with the otters
i went kayaking! W asked if i did well...haha...well, atleast i didn't fall into the ocean! there were sea otters swimming and popping their heads in and out of the water, randomly. it was one of the most picturesque experiences i've had for a while....the aquarium was to my left, and the rest of the ocean was to my right. rowing in tandem, getting salt water splashed onto my face, lying on the beach, wearing an oversized wetsuit, getting a feet tan...
PS2
don't underestimate the skills of a girl. that's all i've got to say.
my return
package one, package two, package three...
my sis' highlight
after days of waiting, A finally worked up the courage to ask my lil sis to prom. he jumped out of a car and surprised her with him serenading to her with "more than words" on his guitar...the innocence of high school fairy tale romances...in an effort not to steal my lil sis' thunder, i'm not going to rehash my prom stories here, though it creates quite an entertaining chapter in my life...still, i'm so excited for my lil sis. the dress, the hair, the flowers, the makeup. i guess she hasn't technically said yes yet, and was wondering how she should tell him. my daddy responds with: go and get the banjo and sing..."i will go, i will go, i will go to prom with you..." my daddy is quite a character.
back to the routine
1) hitting the books
2) turning into a brownie

wu
jian
dao.

what if? a mind game we play with ourselves, quite satisfyingly. a continuous chase on that road, forgetting the way out...some say it's a rare satisfaction in the midst of disappointment. a walk on a limitless journey, and intentions become forgotten. a dream to hide the bitterness, roaming where the lights end. down this road, we go, we hope, we dream, we hide.

during this past sunday, pastor h talked about masks--the many masks we choose for ourselves. what part of the world is made up? is the drama we create a part of the matrix? it was ironic that two of my friends came over to watch the movie, neither of whom speak the language, simply by reading the subtitles in fine print. i told them that it's called "full time prisoners," because somehow in my twisted memory that's what i thought G had said when we were talking about it. nope, i was not even close. my friends laughed at my made up world. i found it funny as well, since that was one of those instances that i had no idea what i was saying, but somehow words came out....confidently.

so nice to be home, reliving the tastes of japanese, chinese, vietnamese, and korean delicacies. i miss jumping into the pool when the water is warm---with the first time this year being a dare, a dare with all my clothes on---what a role model i am not. i miss sporting the summer tan. i miss driving around and seeing asians at the crossroads. i miss walking along the sandy beaches. i miss being the fob-wannabe. i miss chatting online with someone who still needs to write papers. i miss home.

i've never been to LA so many times in such frequency before. this past week has been quite an adventure--seeing all those familiar faces! J's the best for helping me out on my flipbook project! G definitely has some creative juices. P suggest "the little door" and so do i. and then this coming weekend, i anticipate more fun for the "spoiled," possibly eating at slanted door (and other places), kayaking, filming, bbqing galore? ooh-la-la!...memories return as i pass by buca today...the one restaurant where i got to meet EVERYONE...and now the moscone right across is completely built! crazy how time flies. after taking care of business and meeting with the big cheese, i have grown anxious to start for the summer...i think i can sneak a vacation in the middle of business! thailand, vietnam, sf, la...yeah yeah, spoiled ain't i? =) lucky's really the word.

how can i tell You what i'm feeling these days? sometimes, i'm giddy...sometimes scared...somehow, moments like these have made me stop and listen and hope. and though i don't know why, i feel free---free to make choices, free to love, to laugh and to be me----You've come into my life, turned everything upside down and then right side up again...i almost forgot that i was capable of feeling this way.

a time of growth and realization both about myself and the world around me--
with the power of faith, i have begun to make an impression that only traces what is to come. when the dust of the present settles, what impression will i have made in the road of history? this is the question i ask myself ....yet, only a lifetime can answer. though with uncertainty, somehow, in the deep crevices of anticipation, my heart is smiling...