i like to know. don't we all? even though it takes away the sponetaneity of life, certainty brings us comfort and security, something that we constantly look for everyday...or at least that's what i do. the way i want to belong, the way i want to find comfort, the way i want myself to be. sometimes i try to prepare myself for every possibility, thinking of all possible options. what would i do if plan A happened? what if it was half of plan A and rest of plan B? let's have a backup for the backup plan! am i just living through unnecessarily self-inflicted psychological limitations that weigh myself down? with this year off, i am supposed to live it up (and i will try since it is one of my new year's resolutions), but at the same time, my life can do a 180 by july or august and i cannot even begin to imagine just HOW to prepare for it.
impatient people, like myself, are like cats petted backwards--apt to yowl over the discomfort of things not done right or not done at all. but "a man's wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense. " (Proverb 19:11). one of my friends is going through a waiting period as well; his life can change in a matter of days. although he never outrightly admitted his concerns, i know this period can be tense. like my situation, it tries his temper and patience. what has inspired me most, however, is his optimistic outlook on life. for me, when something goes wrong, i often believe that i was doing something wrong in life, or that something was wrong with the process of life. but it is time to embrace the process of life without fear...i often forget to remind myself that i really don't know what the process is, but that i AM equipped to handle whatever shows up. whatever happens, happens.
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last night, at lumps fellowship, i learned that there are two types of wisdom: earthly wisdom that makes us proud, and heavenly wisdom that makes us humble. we are all submerged in an environment of earthly wisdom; life is real like that. but it is time to think about the wisdom that indeed makes us humble...just a thought.
being on a mass emailing list, i received an updated email from a stranger a few weeks back. thinking that she can probably relate to me, i randomly emailed her. she lives far away, but we've had a chance to get to know each other through (once-again) the internet-community. i finally got a chance to meet her in person last night. maybe it's chemistry, maybe it's fate, but somehow i felt really safe. sure i can be vulnerable, since she knows deep stories about me at times when i was simply writing to an inanimate computer screen. but the way we finally connected in person was heartfelt--a very warm tingly feeling. somehow the people you are drawn to day-to-day is not just a coincidence.
i didn't realize that my "mind" has become entertainment for many. yesterday, i was flattered with "oh, you write so well"/"oh, you're so creative" comments. i think what was even more entertaining was when my clever friend decided to quote me throughout our conversations! creative...usually it describes an "artsy" kind of person--someone who paints or composes or makes pottery. such creative pursuits can bring great joy to those who do them and to those who enjoy the results. but you really don't have to be an artist to infuse your life with the spirit of creativity. it is so much more than "arts and crafts." it is a way of seeing, a willingness to see wonderful possibilities in something unformed or ordinary or even ugly. creativity is a God-given ability to take something ordinary and make it into something special. it is an openness to doing old things in new ways and a willingness to adapt other people's good ideas to suit our personal needs. and creativity is an ability we all possess, although many of us keep it hidden in the deep corners of our lives. every single human being is creative. this spirit is part of our heritage as children of He who "created" us. hence, nurturing our creativity is our responsibility as the stewards of God's good gifts...so, my friend, have i inspired you to do something creative today?
impatient people, like myself, are like cats petted backwards--apt to yowl over the discomfort of things not done right or not done at all. but "a man's wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense. " (Proverb 19:11). one of my friends is going through a waiting period as well; his life can change in a matter of days. although he never outrightly admitted his concerns, i know this period can be tense. like my situation, it tries his temper and patience. what has inspired me most, however, is his optimistic outlook on life. for me, when something goes wrong, i often believe that i was doing something wrong in life, or that something was wrong with the process of life. but it is time to embrace the process of life without fear...i often forget to remind myself that i really don't know what the process is, but that i AM equipped to handle whatever shows up. whatever happens, happens.
....
last night, at lumps fellowship, i learned that there are two types of wisdom: earthly wisdom that makes us proud, and heavenly wisdom that makes us humble. we are all submerged in an environment of earthly wisdom; life is real like that. but it is time to think about the wisdom that indeed makes us humble...just a thought.
being on a mass emailing list, i received an updated email from a stranger a few weeks back. thinking that she can probably relate to me, i randomly emailed her. she lives far away, but we've had a chance to get to know each other through (once-again) the internet-community. i finally got a chance to meet her in person last night. maybe it's chemistry, maybe it's fate, but somehow i felt really safe. sure i can be vulnerable, since she knows deep stories about me at times when i was simply writing to an inanimate computer screen. but the way we finally connected in person was heartfelt--a very warm tingly feeling. somehow the people you are drawn to day-to-day is not just a coincidence.
i didn't realize that my "mind" has become entertainment for many. yesterday, i was flattered with "oh, you write so well"/"oh, you're so creative" comments. i think what was even more entertaining was when my clever friend decided to quote me throughout our conversations! creative...usually it describes an "artsy" kind of person--someone who paints or composes or makes pottery. such creative pursuits can bring great joy to those who do them and to those who enjoy the results. but you really don't have to be an artist to infuse your life with the spirit of creativity. it is so much more than "arts and crafts." it is a way of seeing, a willingness to see wonderful possibilities in something unformed or ordinary or even ugly. creativity is a God-given ability to take something ordinary and make it into something special. it is an openness to doing old things in new ways and a willingness to adapt other people's good ideas to suit our personal needs. and creativity is an ability we all possess, although many of us keep it hidden in the deep corners of our lives. every single human being is creative. this spirit is part of our heritage as children of He who "created" us. hence, nurturing our creativity is our responsibility as the stewards of God's good gifts...so, my friend, have i inspired you to do something creative today?
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