a road less travelled.
today, i walked down that corridor with confidence and nostalgia. it feels different from the last time i was there. i feel different. sometimes, it feels like my months in SF have been challenging and strenuous, that i've been tackling problem after problem, without a breath of fresh air--as if i've been trudging along so slowly that i'll never see the finish line. but when i turn my head around and look back, i no longer see that starting point either. i only see the fondest memories that i've shared with so many people...i have travelled so far, grown up so much, since then. and all i want to do is thank Him for giving me such strength--how else could i have done it? growing up is difficult, but not impossible. He gives me something to look forward to everyday; there is always something unique, every waking moment. and that, in itself, brings a smile to my face.
i went to a seminar today on health policy in the European community. my professors advised me to go, because when anyone hears about something like that, they think of me. it defines me quite fittingly. but sitting there, with half my attention listening and the other half daydreaming, i realize that i no longer have that burning desire to bounce around the globe and reach for the gold. am i losing ambition? hmmm, maybe. but more importantly, i am satisfied. i am so much more open to the new adventures that lay ahead for me. it's a wild feeling, i tell ya---the nostalgia comes from missing the old self, but yet, growing in the new. i think it's just one of those...i-really-appreciate-today kinda feeling. i left the seminar early to drive around SF; i drove towards the beach, got out, walked around, and then hopped back into my baby and drove around some more. i think i'm going to try to take longer lunch breaks outside of my lab....that way, i can appreciate SF during the day too. =)
this past weekend:
my sister.
she's gorgeous. she's absolulely amazing. my lil sis, cousins, and i went to take a look at her wedding gown; she tried it on for us. the lines were simple, the style was classy...i almost cried just simply watching my sister stand there, in front of the mirrors, and to top it all, she didn't even have her makeup or hair done! i thank Him for making her so beautiful and so lucky. we're like apples and oranges; some couldn't even tell that we're sisters. but that's what's so amazing about our friendship...we complement each other well.
children's ministry.
this Sunday, i played with 3-5 year olds and taught them a bible study with Larryboy. creating a storm in a water bucket, teaching them that Jesus calms, running around chasing after them, making arts 'n' crafts with them, chewing on string cheese without swallowing...all that made me want to drop everything and enjoy the simplicity of everyday life. i miss being a kid, without any responsibilties, without any fears...just pure innocence. too bad i missed my friends at service...and too bad another (ahem!) slept right through service...maybe next time...=)
today, i walked down that corridor with confidence and nostalgia. it feels different from the last time i was there. i feel different. sometimes, it feels like my months in SF have been challenging and strenuous, that i've been tackling problem after problem, without a breath of fresh air--as if i've been trudging along so slowly that i'll never see the finish line. but when i turn my head around and look back, i no longer see that starting point either. i only see the fondest memories that i've shared with so many people...i have travelled so far, grown up so much, since then. and all i want to do is thank Him for giving me such strength--how else could i have done it? growing up is difficult, but not impossible. He gives me something to look forward to everyday; there is always something unique, every waking moment. and that, in itself, brings a smile to my face.
i went to a seminar today on health policy in the European community. my professors advised me to go, because when anyone hears about something like that, they think of me. it defines me quite fittingly. but sitting there, with half my attention listening and the other half daydreaming, i realize that i no longer have that burning desire to bounce around the globe and reach for the gold. am i losing ambition? hmmm, maybe. but more importantly, i am satisfied. i am so much more open to the new adventures that lay ahead for me. it's a wild feeling, i tell ya---the nostalgia comes from missing the old self, but yet, growing in the new. i think it's just one of those...i-really-appreciate-today kinda feeling. i left the seminar early to drive around SF; i drove towards the beach, got out, walked around, and then hopped back into my baby and drove around some more. i think i'm going to try to take longer lunch breaks outside of my lab....that way, i can appreciate SF during the day too. =)
this past weekend:
my sister.
she's gorgeous. she's absolulely amazing. my lil sis, cousins, and i went to take a look at her wedding gown; she tried it on for us. the lines were simple, the style was classy...i almost cried just simply watching my sister stand there, in front of the mirrors, and to top it all, she didn't even have her makeup or hair done! i thank Him for making her so beautiful and so lucky. we're like apples and oranges; some couldn't even tell that we're sisters. but that's what's so amazing about our friendship...we complement each other well.
children's ministry.
this Sunday, i played with 3-5 year olds and taught them a bible study with Larryboy. creating a storm in a water bucket, teaching them that Jesus calms, running around chasing after them, making arts 'n' crafts with them, chewing on string cheese without swallowing...all that made me want to drop everything and enjoy the simplicity of everyday life. i miss being a kid, without any responsibilties, without any fears...just pure innocence. too bad i missed my friends at service...and too bad another (ahem!) slept right through service...maybe next time...=)
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home