whimpers of the heart
i don't have dsl anymore, so my cyberspace buddies must be worried. it's friday afternoon and i've been running all around today, stressed, ready to call it quits for work; i just don't have a good excuse and the responsible side of me is taking over. how DO i just pack my bags and leave? =( but other than whining or going home at a decent hour today, i just want to reminisce a little the memorable times before i call it a week.

i finally moved out of my apartment and into another. packing really takes a toll on your system. i remember the last time i moved so much around was when i went home to SoCal in november, the same day my friend went over to the east coast. i remember being invited to a dinner of "close-knit" friends the night before...i remember waiting outside when it was really cold, talking to everyone who was a stranger to me. i remember being asked to sit down on the chair, but i refused, because i wanted to stand. i remember taking a picture while holding the diamond cross pendant. i remember attempting to use my spanish while Wo drew a picture of her. i remember sharing my testimony with Ok even though i had no idea how she'd respond. i remember laughing uncontrollably when Sh teased me of putting the chicken back onto the plate and Le shouted that it must be a cantonese thing. i remember La getting a discount for us because we waited OH-SO-LONG for a table. i remember standing in the DDD apartment the night before, talking to Au and Sh in the kitchen, being encouraged and invited to return to SF again. i remember sounding like a fob, being a fob, responding to another fob....only to know that being an ABC, my chinese was even better than another fob. =) i remember Lu inspiring me on music, on my walk, on my recovery. somehow our paths are changing lanes again; they won't necessarily cross until a very VERY long time. it makes me sad; i was reminded of it again today in my inbox. i asked Him my favorite word.