day 14: ho chi minh city
IMprayer from a 3am conversation

"dear heavenly father, please fill ... with your spirit right now, let her not be distracted from doing your work, but that the joy she has in serving you in distant lands outshines the difficulties and distractions that she faces. please refresh her soul with the joy she experiences today in her ministry, adn that just as your love is unwavering, that her focus on you is also as consistent. please also give ... a heart of discernment, and a faithful heart focused on you as well...in jesus' name, amen"---j

i'm feeling lonely here. i've been in front of this computer for the past 2 hours now. i should really take advantage of just going out and seeing HCMC. heaviness envelopes my spirit, as i chug along in this race, this race for impossible perfection. why has He placed me in these corridors for soul-searching? does He find me lacking in ways that i need to find myself again? as great as it is to be in a foreign land, i am struggling with my inner strength---specifically emotional strength. trying to figure things out, i guess, trying to be ambitious again.

phone calls are insanely expensive. and well, computer access is limited. so what do you do when you really have no human contact to turn to? God is most flexible, i know. and i chose to be in this position right? brokenness, humility....and this too will pass.