catching up.
it almost seems as if i've unplugged myself somewhat from the SF life. ever since i've settled back into my home from all the travelling, i've been focusing my attention on work: staying later, working harder, feeling the grind. sister's wedding plans are also wrapping up; which means, i need to seriously get in shape if i want to fit into the bridesmaid dress. time has been limited when it comes to all the IM chats and social gatherings with my friends...in fact, i haven't even hung out with my CAL friends since january.
maybe it's my way of "letting go," my way of dealing with my attachments. catching up on some goodbye-blogs made me realize how sad i truly am when it comes to thinking about leaving SF. it's almost as if i'm subconsciouly slipping away to prepare myself for my future departure--to soften the deep heartfelt sadness that will inevitably come by my way.
having discipleship with my sister on saturday brought tears to both our eyes. no, not just simple whimpers, but full-on tears. i will miss her. i will miss so many people, and knowing that people are slowly leaving one by one, i can only thank Him for putting them in my life in the first place. as i've mentioned earlier in my previous blogs, all the gifts i've received may or may not stay when i go out into the world again...
watching star wars with 20+ others brought back the meaning of friendship. there IS no point for incessant whining (as J puts it)...i might as well take advantage of all their presences now and use this time to further develop friendships that may potentially be lifelong. makes me sad thinking about it...but these memories will never be forgotten, and honestly, we'll all just be a phone call away.
it almost seems as if i've unplugged myself somewhat from the SF life. ever since i've settled back into my home from all the travelling, i've been focusing my attention on work: staying later, working harder, feeling the grind. sister's wedding plans are also wrapping up; which means, i need to seriously get in shape if i want to fit into the bridesmaid dress. time has been limited when it comes to all the IM chats and social gatherings with my friends...in fact, i haven't even hung out with my CAL friends since january.
maybe it's my way of "letting go," my way of dealing with my attachments. catching up on some goodbye-blogs made me realize how sad i truly am when it comes to thinking about leaving SF. it's almost as if i'm subconsciouly slipping away to prepare myself for my future departure--to soften the deep heartfelt sadness that will inevitably come by my way.
having discipleship with my sister on saturday brought tears to both our eyes. no, not just simple whimpers, but full-on tears. i will miss her. i will miss so many people, and knowing that people are slowly leaving one by one, i can only thank Him for putting them in my life in the first place. as i've mentioned earlier in my previous blogs, all the gifts i've received may or may not stay when i go out into the world again...
watching star wars with 20+ others brought back the meaning of friendship. there IS no point for incessant whining (as J puts it)...i might as well take advantage of all their presences now and use this time to further develop friendships that may potentially be lifelong. makes me sad thinking about it...but these memories will never be forgotten, and honestly, we'll all just be a phone call away.
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