when i was a little girl, scared of cooties and germs, i wondered if i would ever like boys.
when i had my first crush, i wondered if i would ever talk to him without stuttering.
when i finally had guy friends to talk to, i wondered if they would ever like me back.
when i heard the words "i like you" from a boy for the first time, i wondered if i would ever hold hands.
when i finally held someone's hand, i wondered if i would ever kiss.
when i got my first kiss, i wondered if i would have a boyfriend.
when i had my first boyfriend, i wondered if it would last.
when i had my heart broken, i wondered if i would ever heal.
when i thought my heart had healed, i wondered if i was too idealistic...
when i attended my friend's wedding yesterday, i now know something that i never thought possible.

every season in life brings about a different reaction, a different understanding, a different revelation.

oops! my postdoc sat down in front of my computer while answering a call. she must think i'm psycho. =)