a novel but timely idea.
with a mesh of overwhelming thoughts flying across the room, maybe it is time for me to sit still again. yes, that's been my prayer request. to sit still, to listen, and to be faithful. "where did God go?" i had thought amidst my busy schedule at one point in time...

but today, someone special told me to email back the top 10 things that made me happy today...i am so spoiled. i really am. i became hesistant after the first thing. how can i be so ungrateful sometimes? why do i keep pursuing my goals and dreams, only to find myself lonely...completely lonely from life's intended purpose. how can that be? i've asked God. with my somewhat agenda-oriented lifestyle the past few days, i'm beginning to lose sight of what's important. ever since my SF-year off, i haven't relapsed into such habits until now. i wonder if it's the school, or the people here, or the people not here, but somehow, a new focus must be reached. i have an inexplicable case of the "bothersome worries." i think the bottom line is...this place is small, confining...i just miss seeing the world...