i was somewhat stressed out at work today. in fact, things haven't gone as smoothly as i hoped. i've been working hard, thinking a lot, and just plain, stressing. i even had one-on-one talks with my two professors (individually) for like an hour and a half each about my research. what a day! luckily, my "missed" friend sent me an encouraging email--the power of words.
in the meantime, whenever i see my friends, it's so easy to just forget and enjoy the moment. i wonder if it's me hiding from my worries, denying reality, or it's really me enjoying my time. i would hope it's the latter because life should be like that, but it does not take away what IS on my mind and what IS going to affect my decisions. i guess that's part of growing up...to take on responsibilties and to stay committed to them. it is hard to do, unfortunately, because it is so easy to become distracted, to fall prey to temptations; in fact, a part of me just wants to pick up, pack my bags, and go home to SoCal. home often speaks of itself as a safe haven...wherever you may be.
despite the long day, i went running after work with my friend. it was a good way to release some of the pressure and tension inside of me. i don't think my friend really noticed how heavy i felt today, how much i wanted to cry (yeah, it WAS stressful), how desperate i was looking for some attention or comfort. but i didn't whine and i didn't come across as lil-miss-needy. maybe it was just one of those, i-can-handle-my-own type of feeling...sigh. maybe i just need rest.
i cooked dinner, but it turned out to be a flop. =/ i'm usually an alright cook, i promise! but maybe i'm just tired today. oh so many excuses! afterwards, i was dropped off at daves' to watch smallville. it's my second time watching that show, and both times, i've walked in and out. i didn't quite understand the hype my friends have been raving about...clark? lana? what's the big deal? i thought i grew out of the WB shows, until i watched the last 30 minutes of it tonight, and boy...seeing clark in action! and then that smile...i couldn't but give off a "whoa! he's cute!" comment. sigh. flew was right. it is easy for a pretty girl to be liked by other guys (in a matter of minutes), but the pretty boy must "actually do something heroic" or "have action" in order for girls to like him as much. i'm a living proof. seeing the shots of clark didn't make much difference, but i saw him in action (with that pearly-white smile!). sigh. it made up for the heaviness of my day. so simple, yes; so happy too.
in the meantime, whenever i see my friends, it's so easy to just forget and enjoy the moment. i wonder if it's me hiding from my worries, denying reality, or it's really me enjoying my time. i would hope it's the latter because life should be like that, but it does not take away what IS on my mind and what IS going to affect my decisions. i guess that's part of growing up...to take on responsibilties and to stay committed to them. it is hard to do, unfortunately, because it is so easy to become distracted, to fall prey to temptations; in fact, a part of me just wants to pick up, pack my bags, and go home to SoCal. home often speaks of itself as a safe haven...wherever you may be.
despite the long day, i went running after work with my friend. it was a good way to release some of the pressure and tension inside of me. i don't think my friend really noticed how heavy i felt today, how much i wanted to cry (yeah, it WAS stressful), how desperate i was looking for some attention or comfort. but i didn't whine and i didn't come across as lil-miss-needy. maybe it was just one of those, i-can-handle-my-own type of feeling...sigh. maybe i just need rest.
i cooked dinner, but it turned out to be a flop. =/ i'm usually an alright cook, i promise! but maybe i'm just tired today. oh so many excuses! afterwards, i was dropped off at daves' to watch smallville. it's my second time watching that show, and both times, i've walked in and out. i didn't quite understand the hype my friends have been raving about...clark? lana? what's the big deal? i thought i grew out of the WB shows, until i watched the last 30 minutes of it tonight, and boy...seeing clark in action! and then that smile...i couldn't but give off a "whoa! he's cute!" comment. sigh. flew was right. it is easy for a pretty girl to be liked by other guys (in a matter of minutes), but the pretty boy must "actually do something heroic" or "have action" in order for girls to like him as much. i'm a living proof. seeing the shots of clark didn't make much difference, but i saw him in action (with that pearly-white smile!). sigh. it made up for the heaviness of my day. so simple, yes; so happy too.
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