from eating espresso + vanilla bean ice cream at sweet inspirations *grin* to eating banana ice cream mixed with brownie at coldstone *grin*, i must say my weekend was quite fulFILLing. along with disney's classic cinderella on tv sunday night, i got to relive my childhood fantasies of being a princess with two "sisters." my weekend would appear naked for someone who skied down a black diamond or who got pampered with ritzy perks; but for me, it was simple and sweet.
contrary to what i intended for a friday night--doing NOTHING--i grabbed a burrito dinner down in mission and carried on an insightful, yet creative conversation with a friend. we jumped from apples and oranges to guavas and papayas, but the conversations always danced around a certain theme. am i just being overly analytical now, trying to formulate a bing-bang-bongo essay from a simple night? i think this idea has popped up in several conversations now independent of the conversers--hence, making it quite a worthwhile topic to blog.
we often cast judgement without fully knowing or understanding the circumstances of that situation, person, or thing. it's human nature to simply accept our natural instincts, our inherent biases, and respond with something that may be completely ill-founded. or maybe we're not having pre- or misconceptions, but we're simply too lazy to figure out the true meaning of that something. i used to be guilty of that (maybe i still am)--judging a situation without really knowing why. i missed out on a lot of activities because i assumed i wouldn't have fun, but little did i know, vegetating at home would not be any better. while taking a trip down memory lane, one of the distinct moments that surprised me was my internship in DC--a definite watermark in my life. spending a summer in a politcally-intense environment was not on my priority list, but i had applied because...um...curiosity. the lewinsky scandal sparked a lot of my attention, i remembered, but i hated politics. i may make a statement as bold as: i could never see myself being a politician or lawyer. but who was i to think politics was bad? i had no reason to judge something i had no knowledge about. policy was not in my vocabulary until then. somehow, my interaction with tipper tipped my balance and prompted me to pursue something completely unrelated to my career path. the truth was, this surprise, my new interest, gave me a push to give alternative opportunities a try. i could not have been more excited, more passionate about this change...
in my opinion, it's not fair to judge unless you were part of it yourself. so when my friend (later joined by another) and i chatted about the recent "service," a typical response would be to tease and ridicule. but no, i wanted to learn and understand more; in fact, i wish i was invited to attend and partake in this special event. ah hem! =) what i noticed was that being in the comforts of your own "zone," your own group of peers, it is easy to act the way you do, to fit in, to find your social niche, to belong. it becomes extremely easy to look at another niche, and judge. you set expectations according to your group's standards. it is easy to be who you are, or create who you are, because you're already a part of it. but what becomes difficult is to step outside of that stress-free zone, and STILL be who you are. with new and unique fascinations, you can easily fall prey into outwardly temptations. the conducts of being a christian, for instance, in a church or fellowship environment is set; there are no games to play. but once you situate yourself in a new surrounding, being yourself becomes more difficult. it is BEING yourself in such an environment and surviving that are more admirable. it is in situations like these that test where your true faith lies, where you stand as the inner you. i can stay in my comfort zone, but my growth would eventually plateau.
i've never been afraid to try new things, because i like the challenge...i like to question who i am, though sometimes it gets stressful. =) but the rules of the game of life are quite simple. even though i am only 22, i know that the fundamentals of who i am will not change.
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waking up at 7am on a saturday morning was a foreign idea. but somehow, i managed. spending time at the worship conference down in mountain view was definitely worthwhile. i wish i stayed longer, especially to learn more about the keyboard. of course the savory combination of costco pizza and krispy kreme added to the highlights of a wonderful day!
sunday....spent my time at GrX, lunched with sister, bro-in-law, and dS. the rest of the weekend was dedicated to SHOPPING. sigh. it was tough, i tell ya. not an easy job. =) walking from one jeweler to another, i could not help but drool over the myriad designs of the colorless crystalline form of carbon. another day...another time. fortunately, the weekend was productive...after trying on about 10 different bridesmaid dresses and realizing that i look nothing like the models in the magazines, a good contender was discovered--maybe i was just pooped from trying on any more!
contrary to what i intended for a friday night--doing NOTHING--i grabbed a burrito dinner down in mission and carried on an insightful, yet creative conversation with a friend. we jumped from apples and oranges to guavas and papayas, but the conversations always danced around a certain theme. am i just being overly analytical now, trying to formulate a bing-bang-bongo essay from a simple night? i think this idea has popped up in several conversations now independent of the conversers--hence, making it quite a worthwhile topic to blog.
we often cast judgement without fully knowing or understanding the circumstances of that situation, person, or thing. it's human nature to simply accept our natural instincts, our inherent biases, and respond with something that may be completely ill-founded. or maybe we're not having pre- or misconceptions, but we're simply too lazy to figure out the true meaning of that something. i used to be guilty of that (maybe i still am)--judging a situation without really knowing why. i missed out on a lot of activities because i assumed i wouldn't have fun, but little did i know, vegetating at home would not be any better. while taking a trip down memory lane, one of the distinct moments that surprised me was my internship in DC--a definite watermark in my life. spending a summer in a politcally-intense environment was not on my priority list, but i had applied because...um...curiosity. the lewinsky scandal sparked a lot of my attention, i remembered, but i hated politics. i may make a statement as bold as: i could never see myself being a politician or lawyer. but who was i to think politics was bad? i had no reason to judge something i had no knowledge about. policy was not in my vocabulary until then. somehow, my interaction with tipper tipped my balance and prompted me to pursue something completely unrelated to my career path. the truth was, this surprise, my new interest, gave me a push to give alternative opportunities a try. i could not have been more excited, more passionate about this change...
in my opinion, it's not fair to judge unless you were part of it yourself. so when my friend (later joined by another) and i chatted about the recent "service," a typical response would be to tease and ridicule. but no, i wanted to learn and understand more; in fact, i wish i was invited to attend and partake in this special event. ah hem! =) what i noticed was that being in the comforts of your own "zone," your own group of peers, it is easy to act the way you do, to fit in, to find your social niche, to belong. it becomes extremely easy to look at another niche, and judge. you set expectations according to your group's standards. it is easy to be who you are, or create who you are, because you're already a part of it. but what becomes difficult is to step outside of that stress-free zone, and STILL be who you are. with new and unique fascinations, you can easily fall prey into outwardly temptations. the conducts of being a christian, for instance, in a church or fellowship environment is set; there are no games to play. but once you situate yourself in a new surrounding, being yourself becomes more difficult. it is BEING yourself in such an environment and surviving that are more admirable. it is in situations like these that test where your true faith lies, where you stand as the inner you. i can stay in my comfort zone, but my growth would eventually plateau.
i've never been afraid to try new things, because i like the challenge...i like to question who i am, though sometimes it gets stressful. =) but the rules of the game of life are quite simple. even though i am only 22, i know that the fundamentals of who i am will not change.
****
waking up at 7am on a saturday morning was a foreign idea. but somehow, i managed. spending time at the worship conference down in mountain view was definitely worthwhile. i wish i stayed longer, especially to learn more about the keyboard. of course the savory combination of costco pizza and krispy kreme added to the highlights of a wonderful day!
sunday....spent my time at GrX, lunched with sister, bro-in-law, and dS. the rest of the weekend was dedicated to SHOPPING. sigh. it was tough, i tell ya. not an easy job. =) walking from one jeweler to another, i could not help but drool over the myriad designs of the colorless crystalline form of carbon. another day...another time. fortunately, the weekend was productive...after trying on about 10 different bridesmaid dresses and realizing that i look nothing like the models in the magazines, a good contender was discovered--maybe i was just pooped from trying on any more!
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