"leavin with a bang!"
that's what my postdoc complimented me on today, *grin*...it's my last day at work...the last day to use a pipette, to grow bacteria, to clone genes, to make science breakthroughs in the wonderful monotonous world of biomolecular research...it's nice to know that my skills and efforts have been ultilized to the fullest before i step out of here.
my postdoc bid her farewells to me early in the morning. she told me that i've definitely matured during this past year and that i've definitely made the right decision to go to the land of yah-lehs. hmm...yeah, i think so. leaving my sheltered world behind, i've definitely grown a lot more independent and built a tougher skin to face the real world and the real challenges of a "realistic" society. some instances have left me asking for more. some have hardened my heart. all in all, laying aside my tu-tu has definitely made me feel old. moments like these make me forget about all the long treacherous after-hours i had to put in or the upsetting 2-people demands for a 1-person job. everything is washed away, but only the great heartfelt encouragements are crystal clear. that is what i call relationship.
another so-called peon lab friend, like myself, did something special for me today. i never really had that much of a chance to chat with her, but our occasional talks about the idiosyncracies of random lifestyles have made me realize they have been special. her gesture was completely unexpected...maybe i'd be wooed and won over by the pretty boy down in building 3, but from her? it was so incredibly sweet. it's not the surprise that make me realize how wonderful she is, but that He is teaching me to treat everyone equally, with respect and kindness, no matter where and what i will be doing in the future (world of politics?) because no one deserves to be neglected. perspective. these pleasant surprises totally weaken my heart and make me dance like a doting fawn, just simply knowing that people can be so beautiful, that He has created inherently loving people, and that despite all that CAN be ugly, there is hope and there is love when you least expect it.
i'll probably have very limited computer access once i quit my work. i'm definitely going to miss the correspondence i've had through this PC throughout the past 9 months...especially the communication between "2.18K-girl," and many others....but one who sticks out of my mind is him. his emails have been quite creative and entertaining...enough to make a bored girl laugh (oh wait, that IS no standard!)...his random pulling-out-of-his-behind humor can be quite enticing, i must say, and it has definitely prompted more communication than otherwise predicted. the occasional chats have left me inquiring for more, and in response, i've been quite creative myself---writing random poems, instigating ponderous remarks, and most importantly, asking for attention. muhaha. whoever said the internet world was impersonal!
as i sit here, reading old and new emails, blogs and other random tidbits of internet entertainment, i see that my desk is clean and tidy, nearly empty except for my bumblebee backpack. my sg is organizing a little farewell shindig for moi. i feel so lucky, so blessed. i hate goodbyes and despite my rather attention-hungry demeanor, i'll have to admit that being in the center of attention for something like this is not easy. i just can't be pleased, can i? well, maybe...if only i had a pint of marco polo's arcobaleno ice cream in front of me...=)
that's what my postdoc complimented me on today, *grin*...it's my last day at work...the last day to use a pipette, to grow bacteria, to clone genes, to make science breakthroughs in the wonderful monotonous world of biomolecular research...it's nice to know that my skills and efforts have been ultilized to the fullest before i step out of here.
my postdoc bid her farewells to me early in the morning. she told me that i've definitely matured during this past year and that i've definitely made the right decision to go to the land of yah-lehs. hmm...yeah, i think so. leaving my sheltered world behind, i've definitely grown a lot more independent and built a tougher skin to face the real world and the real challenges of a "realistic" society. some instances have left me asking for more. some have hardened my heart. all in all, laying aside my tu-tu has definitely made me feel old. moments like these make me forget about all the long treacherous after-hours i had to put in or the upsetting 2-people demands for a 1-person job. everything is washed away, but only the great heartfelt encouragements are crystal clear. that is what i call relationship.
another so-called peon lab friend, like myself, did something special for me today. i never really had that much of a chance to chat with her, but our occasional talks about the idiosyncracies of random lifestyles have made me realize they have been special. her gesture was completely unexpected...maybe i'd be wooed and won over by the pretty boy down in building 3, but from her? it was so incredibly sweet. it's not the surprise that make me realize how wonderful she is, but that He is teaching me to treat everyone equally, with respect and kindness, no matter where and what i will be doing in the future (world of politics?) because no one deserves to be neglected. perspective. these pleasant surprises totally weaken my heart and make me dance like a doting fawn, just simply knowing that people can be so beautiful, that He has created inherently loving people, and that despite all that CAN be ugly, there is hope and there is love when you least expect it.
i'll probably have very limited computer access once i quit my work. i'm definitely going to miss the correspondence i've had through this PC throughout the past 9 months...especially the communication between "2.18K-girl," and many others....but one who sticks out of my mind is him. his emails have been quite creative and entertaining...enough to make a bored girl laugh (oh wait, that IS no standard!)...his random pulling-out-of-his-behind humor can be quite enticing, i must say, and it has definitely prompted more communication than otherwise predicted. the occasional chats have left me inquiring for more, and in response, i've been quite creative myself---writing random poems, instigating ponderous remarks, and most importantly, asking for attention. muhaha. whoever said the internet world was impersonal!
as i sit here, reading old and new emails, blogs and other random tidbits of internet entertainment, i see that my desk is clean and tidy, nearly empty except for my bumblebee backpack. my sg is organizing a little farewell shindig for moi. i feel so lucky, so blessed. i hate goodbyes and despite my rather attention-hungry demeanor, i'll have to admit that being in the center of attention for something like this is not easy. i just can't be pleased, can i? well, maybe...if only i had a pint of marco polo's arcobaleno ice cream in front of me...=)
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