sending them off yesterday--bittersweet moments
there's still so much to write about for each and everyone who left for thailand yesterday. each one has interacted with me in a certain way that i will bring with me to new haven---the jokes, the laughters, the role models they have all been for me. my sg leader noticed that i was "perky" in the morning; he also noticed when i was ready to burst out into tears. he leaned over and said, do you need a tissue? haha! yeah, that's me when i get really excited. but i guess it was also because i wanted to talk to everyone again before they go, and by the time they come back, i'd be gone.
whatever happens to him and her, i'm glad that he has grown so much to take that initiative. she has been such an important part of my life. i trust that we will continue to learn from each other as the years go by. i thank the Lord everyday for our blessed friendship---she has been the sister who i never really had. sometimes we talk and laugh and fret over the most dramatic petty things, but at the same time, she has taught me so much about my boundaries. i know i've mentioned her several times in my blog now, only because she is someone who, if i was not who i am, would be dating! =) and i bet she'd be dating me too. =) her composure, patience, and self-confidence have laid a great impression on me. in my moments of weakness, she always remind me that i am ME because God loves me the way i am; she always reminds me that i am NOT doing anything wrong and that i have nothing to be afraid of; she always reminds me that i have every reason to stand up straight and walk with confidence because others have no reason to judge. she is a sister of faith, of love, and of accountability. no wonder i bug her all the time.
after counseling with him that one time, i never really had much of a chance to catch up. he is the epitome of an older brother. i remember when he first gave me a ride home from perspectives...i don't think i ever talked to him before then. one ski trip ride left us chatting about totally random stuff---some of the most interesting tidbits of personal info that can be overlooked when only having small talk. i enjoy those moments the most---when you're stuck in a car with strangers for several hours, and you cannot hide but be honest, bold, and upfront....that kinda reminds me of my car ride with my homeboys back in the days with 200 questions. i miss those times when people are getting to know you for who you are and vice versa; quality interaction time has been far and few between these days.
when i leaned over to give him a hug of goodbye, i suddenly realized that my "somewhat similar" counterpart will no longer have the time to make fun of me anymore. when he left paying possibly the highest compliment, i realized he may probably be my number one fan for the bonnyth blog. i smiled. the sense of appreciation and gratitude left me speechless. i really just need that ONE person to listen to my esoteric revelations. it made me think if i would continue to blog once i start school in the fall again. maybe. maybe even with a different twist. i'm not sure. i'm really looking forward to starting a new chapter in my life though---a chapter that has not been scripted as i used to do with everything i planned out in the past. for the first time, i'm totally leaving it up to Him to decide what's next. maybe i'll have the opportunity to talk about west vs. east coast controversy. maybe i'll dramatize my first dorm experience that is now FIVE years overdue. maybe i'll begin to blog about my hopelessly romantic life that someone has ALWAYS complained i do not do much of. maybe i'll blog about the most random encounters when i get there. better yet, maybe i'll just make personal calls to my friends instead....it sure beats the absurdity of blogging...we shall see.
there's still so much to write about for each and everyone who left for thailand yesterday. each one has interacted with me in a certain way that i will bring with me to new haven---the jokes, the laughters, the role models they have all been for me. my sg leader noticed that i was "perky" in the morning; he also noticed when i was ready to burst out into tears. he leaned over and said, do you need a tissue? haha! yeah, that's me when i get really excited. but i guess it was also because i wanted to talk to everyone again before they go, and by the time they come back, i'd be gone.
whatever happens to him and her, i'm glad that he has grown so much to take that initiative. she has been such an important part of my life. i trust that we will continue to learn from each other as the years go by. i thank the Lord everyday for our blessed friendship---she has been the sister who i never really had. sometimes we talk and laugh and fret over the most dramatic petty things, but at the same time, she has taught me so much about my boundaries. i know i've mentioned her several times in my blog now, only because she is someone who, if i was not who i am, would be dating! =) and i bet she'd be dating me too. =) her composure, patience, and self-confidence have laid a great impression on me. in my moments of weakness, she always remind me that i am ME because God loves me the way i am; she always reminds me that i am NOT doing anything wrong and that i have nothing to be afraid of; she always reminds me that i have every reason to stand up straight and walk with confidence because others have no reason to judge. she is a sister of faith, of love, and of accountability. no wonder i bug her all the time.
after counseling with him that one time, i never really had much of a chance to catch up. he is the epitome of an older brother. i remember when he first gave me a ride home from perspectives...i don't think i ever talked to him before then. one ski trip ride left us chatting about totally random stuff---some of the most interesting tidbits of personal info that can be overlooked when only having small talk. i enjoy those moments the most---when you're stuck in a car with strangers for several hours, and you cannot hide but be honest, bold, and upfront....that kinda reminds me of my car ride with my homeboys back in the days with 200 questions. i miss those times when people are getting to know you for who you are and vice versa; quality interaction time has been far and few between these days.
when i leaned over to give him a hug of goodbye, i suddenly realized that my "somewhat similar" counterpart will no longer have the time to make fun of me anymore. when he left paying possibly the highest compliment, i realized he may probably be my number one fan for the bonnyth blog. i smiled. the sense of appreciation and gratitude left me speechless. i really just need that ONE person to listen to my esoteric revelations. it made me think if i would continue to blog once i start school in the fall again. maybe. maybe even with a different twist. i'm not sure. i'm really looking forward to starting a new chapter in my life though---a chapter that has not been scripted as i used to do with everything i planned out in the past. for the first time, i'm totally leaving it up to Him to decide what's next. maybe i'll have the opportunity to talk about west vs. east coast controversy. maybe i'll dramatize my first dorm experience that is now FIVE years overdue. maybe i'll begin to blog about my hopelessly romantic life that someone has ALWAYS complained i do not do much of. maybe i'll blog about the most random encounters when i get there. better yet, maybe i'll just make personal calls to my friends instead....it sure beats the absurdity of blogging...we shall see.
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